maybe it's the time for..

maybe's it's time for me to add a new entry to this super-cute-fabolous-extravagant blog..i think its been ages since i last blogged kan? n mady's been asking me is there any new entry?? yes yes syg. i tgh blog la ni. hehe

maybe it's time for me to start studying for end posting exam which is just around the corner. *sigh*

maybe it's time for me to start doing the OBG assignment..im sure the due date is before the exam date. i think la. n the exam is just this coming monday. fuh!!

maybe it's time for me to clean up the messy room. i could get an infection if i dont.

maybe it's time for me to watch a labour in the labour ward.but i havent got the chance :(

maybe it's time for me to start exercising... im getting fatter i can even feel my cheeks getting a tad bit heavier. seriously.

maybe it's time for me to learn how to cook.coz during my chatting session with pz yesterday, he was surprised to the fact that i dont know how to cook. :( how la to kawen if this persists???

maybe it's time to start topping up my hp. cant really sms ppl now! such a nightmare!

maybe it's time for me to send my honda to the mechanic because it's been giving me headaches this past few days. :(

maybe it's time for me to start eating fruits and vegetables again. im having constipation my butt hurts! n plus, for health sake.

maybe it's time for me to start reading bout politics. n understand the politic hairwire in msia. plus. im 21 already.

maybe it's time for me to recite the Quran more. need to ensure the spiritual well being.

maybe it's time for me to tell my cook to cut down on cabbages. they're goitrogenic agent i could develop goitre.

maybe it's time for me to delete the unnecessary unimportant sms-es in my inbox. i have hundreds of them n im getting annoyed. but im just too lazy.

maybe it's time for me to send mady his birthday card..but then he's turning 29 i dont think he wants a card to remind him the awful truth that he has a year to go till he's 30. the BIG 3-0!! hehehe (i still love you tho :) )

maybe maybe maybe it's time for me to go to slumber n get my beauty sleep now..have to look fresh n nice n all pretty tomorrow..because... tomorrow's the class photography session!! yeay! i just L.O.V.E taking pics. i was born to do that! hehe~ :P

nighty2 fellow homosapiens,
hafiza.
xoxo!

sophia and isabella.

i got this link from dina..
n they're just too adorable i just have to show it to you ppl! ngehehehe.

oh..b4 that, pause the song in the blog k??
dont know how? just go to the bottom of this page n click on the pause button in the feast for the ears column!




arent they cute??????????

i want kids!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ngeeeeee.

oh p/s: mael n i still arent talking, we were in the same room just now, he didnt even look at me. oh wells.

MAYday mayday.

ive been having lotsa down moments this month. n it's not even half month.
i feel like shouting.
i need to get this depressing sad feeling off my chest.
i need to get it out.
i need to express it.
but i cant.
the prob is.. i cant tell it to my MR-release-tension.
because he's the root of all my depressing feeling. MOst of it la.
yes,we've been having probs. BIG PROBS. dont wana talk bout it.
plus,ismail called me a bitch yesterday.
oh just so you know.according to him i membebel a lot. im just trying to help him for god's sake. especially with his spending. when i say "mael..jgn la shop byk sgt.." he'll look at me straight in the eye n say "you ni byk membebel, mcm mak tiri"
yes. ive been called as his mak tiri. just because of my expression muka yg terlebih. mcm mana la nak buat, dr azali mcm tu. i myself hate it sumtimes. i even got scolded by a patient coz of it. she tot i was immitating her. for god's sake.. why would i??
urgh talking bout that patient.. im having palpitation and hypertension all of a sudden. wanna know why?? READ on.
she couldnt understand english, let alone speak english.
guess how much i struggled to communicate with her. one kannada language book on my left hand, one notepad and a pen in my other hand.n i need to get history taking done as fast as possible, as i need to present the case in an hour's time.n when jih huei, my postingmate,who checked the case file beforehand, reminded me to ask her whether her baby cried after delivery,which in the file stated that her baby didnt(he said all this in bm la)n i was taken aback la to the fact that the baby didnt cry(fyi,ini sgt bahaya), n as i told earlier.. ekspresi muka saya ni kan mmg terlebih2, jd imejin muka saya masa tu. n that was when all of the sudden she said to me,
"why are you immitating me??"
my heart stopped beating. i was extremely shocked.
so were my postingmates who were there.
wait, wait, rewind! didnt she say she could neither understand nor talk in english?
but didnt she just spoken english? english with no grammatical error. none at all! furthermore,she used the immitating word, which is quite a bombastic word, for me at least.
n how cud she accused me of doing such a thing? n for scolding me in front of my friends, and few other patients who were watching. but i just put on a calm face n said sorry, altho i know it's not my fault as i didnt do anything, or said anything to immitate her, or to insult her. i have witnesses if you dont believe me. imagine how frustrated, geram sakit hati malu i was at that time.
argh. so malas to write more bout it. i hate this month.
SO MUCH.
i fainted during class at the paed ward once.
and i had two almost-faint events twice afterwards. :(
n oh. to make things worse, im having prob with my monthly mara cheques.
and so...
i need someone to save me.
something for me to hold on to.
someone to tell me its gonna be alright.
someone to lend me a shoulder to cry on.
someone just to be here by my side for me to let it all out.

*sigh*

ok ok. i shall not dwell on this matter any longer.
ini hanya cobaan!! yes no? YES.
ive written(typed la hehe) my feelings down, n yeay,im feeling a tad bit better now thank god. :D


p/s: and oh oh! ive just finished my 2nd posting yesterday, n today was the first day of my 3rd 3-weeks-posting which is, sadly, in karkala(this place is 45 mins college-bus ride away from our campus,n the journey's tiring!).
but watever it is,
2 postings down,only 4 more to go b4 balik msia yeay!! :)

nighty nights!

zaman muda mudi.

ive got this forwarded msg from bryan.. brings back good childhood memories.. thought of sharing this with you..

budak2 yg lahir pd thn 80'an mesti ingat mase skola rendah dulu:

> > kat skola ade salesman jual buku
cerita. ari ni bg list, esok mintak
duit beli walaupun cerita buku tu dah tau.
salesman susu pon camtu gak.

> > kat library, budak2 mmg baca buku tp
just tengok gamba je. bile ade program
Nilam, sebok semua nak pinjam buku.

> > RMT kat skola mkn x best, tp yg
berduit pon join RMT, x phm....

> > pakai pensel box yg bole bukak dpn
blkg, pastu ade sharpener kat tgh2 die.

> > main lwn pemadam, syg nak guna utk
padam. padahal itu fungsi sbnr, utk
padam!

> > pakai pembaris yg bergerigi, kat dlm
ade air pastu ade bende berkilat dlm

> > cikgu pakai pembaris kuning pjg. Ade
pemegang kat tgh2 tp x penah nmpk cikgu
pgg pon kat situ.

> > bulu ayam jd ramping krn sering
dijadikan rotan.

> > time pendidikan seni, lukis sume
boleh
tp bile time kaler sume hampeh. ade gak
buat anyaman pakai kertas warna, kolaj
la, ape la...

> > main game 2D. super contra, super
mario, street fighter, sume pakai tape.

> > jam tgn Boy London jd idaman, sbb
bole
tuka2 kaler ikut suhu n cuaca.

> > takut BCG tp lepas inject poyo la
pulak...

> > balik skola beli JoJo xpon Dendang.
Tora pon best gak. Beli se mata2 nak
mainan, coklat die x mkn pon.

> > Kasut berlampu kat tapak, yg iklan
die
kat tV bole tembak alien tu...

> > Siri kartun; power rangers, ultraman,
transformers, ninja turtles,
Thundercats, maskman, Gaban dan mcm lg.

> > mainan waktu rehat : pepsicola ice cream soda..;
main getah; a'kum, kum apa? kombat, bat ape? batman..; dan mcm2 lg

> > jgn lupe sume ni sbb zaman skrg budak2
x smpt lyn bende2 ni. kite akan
sentiasa
berubah, cume asal-usul kite yg
permanent. huhu~

ahhh....i miss my school days. those hassle free days..the only problem we had to juggle was homework. *sigh*

yg benar,<-ikut karangan bm hehe
hafiza.



XOXO!

end posting no. 1

i just had the community medicine end posting exam today.
it was.. not good.
i would not say it was bad.. but it aint good either.. sort of.. intermediate? haha.

the 1st Q: effect of environment on health. ok la.
2nd Q: tertiary prevention of disease. i know this!
3rd Q: the WHO day theme 2008.what was the theme again? sh*t.
4th Q: pattern of disease chan ges in India. fuh,luckily baca smlm.
5th Q: re-emergence of disease. topic ni masok exm?? darn.
6th Q: double burden in cont ext of msia. boleh tahan la.

i was disappointed with myself i went straight home n all of a sudden i had the strong urge to kemas my messy room. been posponing it for weeks. kemas kemas kemas... n now, my rooms clean yeay!!! (ada hikmah rupanya didnt do good in exam tadi hehe)

apapun....... pokoknya.... one posting down, five more to go YEAY!! pastu balik msia mkn everything ive been missing since studying here in india..jd kilang lemak la nanti nampaknya, but ish, asal perut kenyang, minda gembira, senang hati... thats all i need.n of course,surrounded by my loved ones :)

CANT WAIT weeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

xoxo, u know you love me. *wink*

harimau betina.

today's a sunday.
the only day i dont have to wake up early and rush for class.
and yet, today i woke up wayyyyy earlier than the days i have class.
and so, i feel angry. not angry as such, but disappointed.

yesterday i downloaded live messenger. but to install it, i have to have IE 3.1 or later. and so,i downloaded la 3.1 IE or whatever it was. and fell asleep.
as usual.
bukak2 mata trus nampak laptop. and the IE, havent finished downloading. the lappy must've dc-ed when i was asleep.
as usual.
and so i downloaded again. and installed it when it's done.
fuh. step one is done. (it's all because i want the s'pore pics from my sister. i asked her to upload it into my facebook, tp xnak dgr. nak jugak share folders.)
fine.
and so i was happy la..just for a sec. coz when i click on to install the windows live messenger tu, now they say i need this thingy to install the WL messenger. and i dont have this thingy.
1st they ask to update the IE, now i need this thingy.
kenapa lah susah sgt nak pakai WL messenger ni?? mcm la best sgt. *sigh*
and so i d/l-ed the thingy which i forgot what it is..
step two is done. fuh.
after the thingy dh ada in my lappy, at last the WL messenger can be installed. fuh!
yada yada yada..n voila, now i have the messenger.
happy.
so i logged in. n click on the share folders. and to my suprise, this msg box came popping on the screen,
"your computer doesnt support folder sharing"
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
NOW im angry.

i emailed my dad last week for the pics as well. nope, no new mails in my inbox.
i saw my brother online yesterday. nope, he never replies.
i sms-ed my sister just now, marah her for not uploaded the pics in my facebook in the first place. and yes, she also never replies.
hmm. dont they even care bout me here in india??
i need some attention for gods sake.
i need to know they care bout me.
n im not getting any.
do they call me? NO. its me who calls them: my parents my sis my brothers.
do they sms me? RARELY.
i know i shouldnt complaint, but i cant help it.
i just feel sad.
i need to cry.
i am crying.
n now i feel like a loser, for nothing.
and now im pissed. VERY2.

you better get away from me.
coz im about to throw something. dont come near me, i might throw you across the room.
if your weight is 1kg, that is haha.

in a nutshell,i cant handle my anger.
cant handle my emotions.
coz im harimau betina.

an introduction.

hello people!! (if anyone's reading that is)

hmm...ive never ever blogged in my life before, therefore please do pardon mua if reading this is just wasting your precious time. ya ya, time is gold huh?? so hmm.. i think i'll start off this blog with the events that happened today..


1)ive removed my braces!!! (altho this occurred few days back) and soooo i look less a nerd now thank god haha. ;B


2) i woke up yesterday only to realise i have this ugly,disgusting,fluid filled vesicles at the left mucocutaneous junction of my lips..and sooooo today, after it became a tad bit worse, i went to see a doctor at the Skin and STD(what im having has nothing to do with STDs ok!) department at the kasturba hospital here in manipal...andddd as ive expected, i have herpes labialis.

YUP.
herpes infection.
urghhh!!

andd to make things worse, the doctor called all the PGs of the department to look at the classical sign of herpes infection that im manifesting, and they were all like...in aweeeeeeeeee..!! as if theyve never seen this case b4! in case u dont know,80% of ppl in US have herpes infection for gods sake. but ehhem *clears throat* this is NOT genital herpes k.. i repeat, NOT a genital herpes. that's caused by HSV2. and mine? caused by HSV1 ok! see the difference?? hehehehe :P


3) im supposed to be preparing for my presentation tomorrow..but im soo fu*kg lazy. damn. is there any presciption to treat procastinations?? perhaps i should start a research on the treatment, and who knows, i might be the first malaysian ever to receive a nobel prize? maybe yes??
maybe NOT.


4) it rained today!! altho for only 10 minutes, but who cares?? after how many weeks manipal has been having too much of a sunlight, and at last rain came to save the day!! hopefully the rumput rampai will be greener tomorrow, the cows'll eat more tomorrow, get fatter, get sembelih healthily soon, and voila, here comes hafiza ordering beef sandwich at seif's palace :) <-that's the nearest place i can find beef here, im in india remember??


5) oh oh. it's wahida's bfday tomorrow andddd i forgot to buy calling card. damn it. she's turning 21 tomorrow!!! welcome to the club sayang, mwahhsss. aries chicks are cool. and fun. and funky. and funny. and gorgeous. and everything sweet. im talking bout you wahida, anddd me of course hahaha. perasan dowh!! :P ala.... skali skala perasan, apa salahnya??


6) i spilled some veg juice on my bed, n now it looks as if i pee-d in bed. ewww.


7) hmmmmm i think i better stop this now and start preparing for the presentation *sigh* thanks for reading btw! *wink wink*


toddles then..
hafiza.