i've got soul but i aint a soldier.

hello world!!

2010-04-23T13:50:00.003+08:00

oh my freaking goodness!
the last time i updated this blog was... almost a year ago!

WOW.

it's just that, ive been busy lately that blogging seems to be impossible.
Im sorry Mr Bloggy.

here's an update of my life!

♣ im a final year medic student y'all!!! AINT That wonderful?? :D
♥ i have finally found my other soul mate, Mr quackquack. :)
♣ i just got back from Sydney, n i never even seen kangaroos and koalas ever in my life. stupid girl.
♥ im into cooking and baking now. preparing for married life i suppose?? haha :P
♣ i gained weight. n not proud of it. shaddappp
♥ my hair's shorter now. supercute okayyyyyyyyyyyy
♣ OH. im still afraid of cockroaches. ewww
♥ i still talk a lot. but my english AND bm seems to be deteriorating. eekkk
♣ i HATE pretty n skinny people. they tend to make less pretty people like me into depression.
♥ favourite quote for now : screw consequences, create opportunities!!! (quoted from one of the cleo bachelors. hehe)

ok. i gtg!! i'll update again soon!

LOVE YOUR LIFE PPL.
ure gorgeous.
yes YOU :)

toldyaimcute!hahaha kidding. :P

an update.

2009-04-25T02:40:00.003+08:00

sorry for abandoning you for ages Mr Bloggybloggy.
i know u'll forgive me. u know u love me.

ANYWAY.
here's an update for you :

L♥ve songs make me sick.

that's all.

n oh. i think my verbal diarrhea is getting worse each day.
how now?
-___-

_{picture by poop-art on deviantart. oh i love her~}

2009-02-15T10:54:00.003+08:00

i know this issue is unfortunately becoming a norm, but a 13 year old boy becomes a father?? that's just... shocking.

click here to read more :

wt* is going on in this world?

warna.

2009-02-05T21:42:00.004+08:00

This is one of the typographic illustration for the 51st Annual Grammy Awards,

nice
kan??

_{image source : versusDSN's photostream}

random thought.

2009-02-04T20:37:00.009+08:00

now that Barack Obama's the new US president, we wont be calling the white house as the White House now do we?

hmm.

festive mood.

2008-12-24T12:15:00.005+08:00

Dahulu lepas SPM saya bekerja sambilan sebagai seorg santa..

Ketika itu, ini, Ashley, reindeer saya.

ok ok kidding.

i just wanna wish y'all a

Merry Xmas
&
Happy New Year!
:)

eventho i dont celebr8 xmas, but it's a reason to go back to kuching yeay!
Oh i L♥VE festive season!!!!!!

Lets sing along!

2008-12-21T20:18:00.005+08:00

She was beautiful.... i swear! _{james blunt parody}

The Lyrics :
This is freakin' brilliant—whoops! I started way, way, way too early. What? No. Just keep going? Yeah, it's fine. Cheers.

This is freakin' brilliant.
The embarrassment I endure
I thought I saw an angel
I was completely sure
She smiled at me on the subway
Turned out she was a man
I didn't know until I tried to sleep with her
After 8 black and tans

But she was beautiful, She was beautiful
She was beautiful, I swear
When I saw her face, it was in a crowded place
And I didn't see the bump right here
I shouldn't've drank so much beer.

Yeah, she had one lazy eye
But I couldn't tell in that light.
You should have seen the look on my face
When we got home that night.
And I said, "What the----oh my! Can we turn off the lights?"
But she just took off her clothes and my lust turned to fright.

But she was beautiful, She was beautiful
She was beautiful, I swear
When I saw her face, it was in a crowded place
And I didn't see the bulge right here.
Why did I drink so much beer?

No no no no no,
No no no no no no,
No no no no no no!

But she was beautiful, I promise she was beautiful
You gotta believe me she was beautiful, I swear.
I bet a flock of angels had smiles on their faces
As they watched me almost hook up with her—him—her—him—oh, gosh.
But it's time to face the truth
I got drunk and made out with a dude.

Lone Ranger yo!

2008-12-06T21:07:00.004+08:00

Here I am,
all alone in Melaka for a long weekend.
today, 1st saturday of the month : no class.
Raya haji's soon : monday holiday.
Therefore, long boring weekend.
& here I am, stuck in melaka, in my 'sky high' priced hostel room.

Why alone u may ask?

My whole family's in Aussie for the hols,
I cant afford to skip 4 days of lecture classes and postings to tag along,
therefore here i am, alone.
My close friends went back to their respective kampungs yesterday after class,
huhu alone somemore.
beloved boyfriend is onboard a flight to jakarta this very moment,
huhu alone evenmore.

How i wish i have a car for me to waste money on petrol in exchange of a good time.
Genie in a bottle where are you?
:(

Yesterday i did go out for dinner and movie with fellow "Male lone rangers for the weekend".
And today i went out with my ex housemate for lunch and tea.
And i bought a dress that i look cute in.
I guess my weekend's not THAT boring after all.

but still, i want a car.
i NEED a car.
Donate some money into my "Honda Civic Piggybank" please?
Thanks for your generosity.
I'll make sure i'll give u a ride in my civic that i'll get in hundred years time.
:P

*sigh*
maybe i should just go study.
But just the thought of studying can make me sleepy in a fraction of a second.
*triple sigh*

I think im the LAZIEST medic student in history.
The classic presentation of medic students are supposed to be having no social life, studying till wee hours of the night,become a zombie even when the exam is still quite far away, and thick textbooks are their bestfriends isnt it?

but i'm TOTALLY opposite :
-i have quite a good social life,
-studying once in a week to me is like..a big achievement,
-i become a zombie only when i dont eat (this is a RARE phenomena)
-& in fact, my bed is my new bestfriend now.
what is wrong with me??

a boring long post with pics to make it less boring.

2008-11-25T18:30:00.014+08:00

hey hey! sorry sudah lama tak update.. ive been busy.
busy doing... things.
especially sleeping.
and classes.
but nowadays i usually sleep whenever i have free time.
i dont go online that often anymore. maybe once in a fortnight.
shhheeeshh i have no idea who when where how what sucked my interest & the joy of being online, and i think lately ive been a very2 dull, boring person who just dont get interested in things around her.& i can feel that this blogpost's gonna be boring sumhow(hence the title), like ive lost interest in talking/writing bullshit. WEIRD. _{(i still do have interest in boys tho haha)}

ANYWAYS,
one thing i know im interested in now is Edward Cullen!! (to those ppl who dont read twilight, maybe u shud just shift to another blog now)

ANDDDDDDDDDDDD guess what, i just got back from Dataran Pahlawan's GSC with twilight tix intan shydee & i bought 2 days in advance hahaha! omg we're sooooo semangat!

and we're so semangat because..this book is just so..YUMMY YUMMY

hopefully the movie is as good as the novel. *fingers crossed*

but edward cullen in the movie is not as goodlooking as i'd imagined.. i think Ed Westwick(chuck bass in GG) shud play the part, he's damn sexy. Just look at him!!

ED-delicious is the only word i could think of right now :D~

ok. i guess thats the end of my post today. ok bye!
_{dont tell me ive not warned you earlier that this post's gonna be boring!!}

OHYA. to those people(like me) who watch GG and gets depressed looking at Blair Waldorf's never-out-of-place hair,body that curves at appropriate places, whose fashion sense that is definitely the quintessential upper-east-side stereotype, well, i have something to show you,

she used to be less beautiful, just like how we less beautiful average ppl look now! therefore, dont be depressed k! (yes yes im talking to myself!)

TIP OF THE DAY : to look as flawless as she does,

JUST HIRE A MAKEUP ARTIST & A STYLIST, duhh! (dont forget to be bulimic too! :P )

_{for more tips, go to http://www.collegefashion.net/fashion-tips/how-to-dress-like-blair-waldorf/}

& now, old pics of handsome hunks of GG,

ENJOY!

Eid.

2008-10-12T10:09:00.005+08:00

Kerana asyik syiok menikmati juadah yang percuma lagi melazatkan disetiap rumah terbuka sehingga perut juga semakin buncit,lupa pula saya untuk mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri kepada rakan-rakan saya yang muslim dan juga bukan muslim.

Tetapi, hari ini sudah 12 oktober, iaitu hari raya ke-12.
Saya sudah terlambat selama 12 hari untuk wish kamu semua.

Namun begitu, Syawal kan sebulan, maka saya disini ingin mengucapkan,

Selamat
Hari Raya
ke-12!!
Maaf zahir & batin!

p/s:gambar diatas, sayalah yang kepala senget & pipi seakan-akan diserang penyakit beguk(Mumps) itu. posing maut tahun ini lah katakan. haha.

yellow cars.

2008-10-11T21:51:00.003+08:00

today i saw quite a number of ~~jaundiced~~ yellow coloured cars on the road.

4 satrias
4 kelisas
1 naza car
1 mini cooper
1 unidentified car

total = 11!

who stumble upon a number of yellow cars on the road in a day?
i bet you dont!
BUT, today i saw 11, in an hour's time!
weird!

talking bout yellow cars, it reminds me of a novel i read one or two years back, which tells a story of how a mentally challenged kid sees and reacts to the world around him,& one of his special ways of interpreting things that revolve around him is if he were to see a particular number of yellow(or is it red??) cars along the way to school,that day would be sumsort of a good day. & yeah, i did have a good day today! :D

whatever it is, in my opinion,it was a good read. worth it i would say.

it is called 'The Curious Incident Of The Dog In The Night Time.' by Mark Haddon.
Mind you,he has won numerous awards for this bestselling novel!

_{The Lovereading comment on the novel:
It is a dead dog that sets off the chain reaction that leads Christopher Boone to find out the truth about his mother’s disappearance. But this is no usual detective story. Christopher has Asperger's Syndrome: he can recall numbers, will feel safe for a day when he sees three or four or five red cars in a row and he finds emotions near-impossible to unravel. But a dead dog presents the need to understand some complex emotions especially as it also propels Christopher into looking more carefully into his own family and their relationships. Mark Haddon's telling of Christopher's unpredictable response to them is original, kind, disturbing and profoundly moving.}

Hafiza's comment on the novel : it's a must read! apa lagi,pergilah MPH dan beli!

greetings!!

2008-10-10T18:49:00.003+08:00

harlow rakan₂!!
kabarin???
Sorry for not updating my blog sooner, been enjoying my hols earlier, and now im too busy having classes that by the time i get back to my hostel room sleeping is the most logical thing to do(after dinner that is hehe)

ok, now lets update you with a few random facts bout me:
♣ im getting irritated with my everyday-getting-frizzier hair
♣ im 90% positive that ive gained too much weight over the holidays
♣ i noticed that my left thigh is bigger(& heavier) because when i wear pants, the left one feels tighter than the opposite thigh.
♣ i celebrated my first eid in malaysia in 4 years time! was superb!
♣ im no longer in india, in malacca already, just started the second phase of the course :)
♣ altho i have hundreds of friends in friendster, but only a small portion of them are my close friends. others are like.. friend friend je. u know?
♣ my language & communication skills are getting worse day by day.
♣ i fear cockroaches
♣ oh. i think the fact that my hostel room comes with an individual aircond and no fan contributes to the process of making my hair frizzier
♣ im IT illiterate.
♣ i kind of miss my honda scooter back in india :(

ok ok enuff facts bout me!
i wanna show you someting i saw in the staff's toilet of the hospital im posted at

thats the coolest and most colourful _{(err watchu call it? showerhead? showertab? ahhh, lets call it kepala shower la!)}
kepala shower ive ever met!

no more zuma please!

2008-09-08T08:04:00.008+08:00

i'm sick & tired of zuma already.
and i'm sick & tired of sleeping all day.
coz by the end of the day i'll be awake on the bed doing nothing.
i want to play with my cats.
but they're in the cage because lately they've been very very noisy. (as if put them there's gonna stop the meowing, n as if the cage is soundproof! haha)
is it the mating season now?
because ashley & milo are always meowing & golek2 on the floor pretending to be cute & im positive they're trying to seduce me & all. helloooooo im taken, n im sooooo not a lesbian!!! :P
talking bout cats, it reminds me of my ambition when i was younger.
i used to have this very very frizzy kembang hair that i cant tame,
so one day, as i was sitting on the floor watching our cat grooming itself, i question myself, "why do cats have shiny soft fur when all they do is lick them??"
& all of the sudden i had this idea of inventing a syampoo (for humans obviously) made out of cats' saliva so that we'll have shiny soft ~~fur~~ hair as well.
and that moment i felt soooooooooooooooooooo smart!!
hahahaha.
but now i feel soooooo dumb because it's been a while since i last use my brain cells properly. hehe

*sigh*
why is this holiday fall on the ramadhan month?
not that i dont like ramadhan,but as u all know, i just came back from india, so ive been craving for malaysian food since like.. forever, but now i cant go eat happily whenever wherever i want! but then, i still do love ramadhan. :)
apart from sleeping, my days are filled with watching tv or surfing the net.
the other day i stumbled upon a blog, jebonisme.blogspot.com & i think it's the funniest blog ever! PLUS, it's in full bm! (waaaaaaaaah!!!!!!)
people who can speak/blog in perfect bm fascinates me,probably because my bm sucks.
im not saying that my english's good, but then it's better than my bm hands down!
just ask my mum, she knows my bm's bad. mady knows my bm's bad. even farah knows.
the other day, i was in the kitchen with my mum, and i was so semangat narrating her a story, and i used the 'berpusu2' word CORRECTLY in a sentence and my mum just.. froze and stopped chopping the vegetables to look at me and said,
"amboi, since when u use the word berpusu2?" hahahaha!
& this one time, when i just got my spm results, my mum called & i was like jumping up & down telling her that i achieved 7 A's but then she was like,
"I WANNA KNOW WHAT YOU GOT FOR YOUR BM."
"errr..."

**screening the paper**

"A1 ma!!!!!!!"
**only now she literally jumped up & down**
she's so funny because she practically didnt care what i get for all other subjects as long as i get good bm result hehe.
you wanna know why???
because my mum's a bm teacher!!!
& pity her all her children cant speak proper bm.
sorry ma!

home.

2008-08-29T19:30:00.003+08:00

home.
finally.

sorry for not updating my blog,
been busy living my life u know? kuikui.
ok gtg!

n oh,
selamat berpuasa!!

i kissed a... tupai!

2008-08-12T02:49:00.001+08:00

check this out, damn funny!

This is a high quality version of Jackie Beat's "I kissed a squirrel - a parody of Katy Perry's "I Kissed A Girl".

the lyrics :

This was never the way I planned
Not my reality
Walkin' in the park, lunch in my hand
He looked up and smiled at me
It's not what, I'm used to
Just wanna try you on
I'm curious for you
It's called Bestiality

I kissed a squirrel and I liked it
The taste of his hairy black lips
I kissed a squirrel just to try it
I hope PETA don't start no riot
It felt so wrong, It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
French-kissed a squirrel and I liked it
I liked it

Don't even know what you're about
You're another species
You shoved your nuts right in my mouth
And, they tasted like feces
I shuddered 'neath those tender paws
I let you have your way
Those anti-sex with animal laws
Hard to obey

I kissed a squirrel and I liked it
You're intrigued, don't even deny it
I kissed a squirrel just to try it
There goes my vegan diet
It wasn't straight, it wasn't gay
Don't mean I'm in love today
Dont knock it girl, 'til you've tried it
Cuz I liked it

Those squirrels are so adorable
Big brown eyes, and mouths so kissable
Furry bodies so explorable
Too good to - ignore it
I lost control and just went for it

I fucked a squirrel and I liked it
Except the part when he bit my left tit
I hope that squirrel don't have rabies
Cuz now I'm pregnant with 6 of his babies
He had a tiny dong, Thank God I'm tight
I got some bushy tail tonight
I kissed a squirrel and I liked it
I liked it

haha!

bye bye boxes.

2008-08-11T22:02:00.003+08:00

ignore the mismatched baju tdo & the out-of-bed look.

byebye boxes! see you in MELAKA!

yes.
only a week left to go.
i guess i'll be seeing you in msia soon?
weee!!!

ohya.
im terminating my internet connection tomorrow.
therefore i wont be blogging as much.
ciao bella!
have a gorgeous gorgeous day ahead of you people!
:D

girl in red baju kurung.

2008-08-08T19:47:00.004+08:00

can you recognize the girl in red?

it's me!!!!!

OMG
look at the hair.
the oily i-can-goreng-telor skin.
the chubbier cheeks.
the oh-so-red-my-eyes-hurt baju kurung.
and can u see my handbag?? hahahaha
RED!

but hey.at least, the plain baju kurung top and patterned kain was the in thing back then.
so yeah. ;)

newsflash : im done with the last posting. exam was in the morning. yeehaww!! a comprehensive exam and 2 boxes to go and im done :)

hello august!

2008-08-03T21:12:00.008+08:00

the long awaited august is here!!!!!!!

im gonna be home soon.

ive already packed 3 boxes full of clothes, books and junks.

n my room still looks the same, as if i havent packed anything.

and let me tell you, packing is one hell of a good exercise.

not only energy consuming,but time and money as well (to buy the box n the expensive tapes!!)

but anyhow.
i cant wait to be on malaysian soil.
cant wait to see my parents,
my annoying but awesome siblings,
my beautiful gorgeous friends,
and of course, my super awesome funny ~~loser~~ boyfriend.
YEAY!

newsflash : thats my boyfriend up there if youre wondering. haha

bombs.

2008-07-30T09:57:00.007+08:00

bombs are somewhere everyday in india nowadays. shit weyh. cant they wait till i go home to msia safely????

last week there were 7 bomb blasts within 15 mins in Bangalore Silicon City.
one dead.

i think 2 days after that there was a single bigger bomb blast at Ahmedabad.
40 people dead if im not mistaken.

last monday night there was a little tiny bomb at Mangalore Stadium.i was justtt at mangalore last saturday watching the dark knight. awesome movie!
ANYWAY.
i have no idea of how many ppl were the victims.
(ok this part im about to tell, im not so sure bout the 'kebenaran') some country famous temple in udupi(where im posted at) received some msg saying that there's a bomb in an autorickshaw coming from Mangalore going to the temple. aiyooooo why la?? cant you bomb somewhere else awayyyy from me??
(i think this bombing in mglore and udupi is just a rumor. but rumors can be true!! am i right or AM I RIGHT? hehhh)

and.. today i woke up to an sms about a bomb in bangalore anddd delhi.
what a way to start the day off eh? straight from the bed i went to the living room and switched on the indian news on tv.
thank god bombs were found neither in bglore nor delhi. but yes. bombs were found in surat. i dont know where surat is. my geography sucks btw.
n the bomb squad managed to defuse the bombs.
no one dead i suppose.

read this :

Wed, Jul 30 06:47 PM

Ahmedabad, July 30 (PTI) The Directorate of Forensic Science (DFS) in Gandhinagar is trying to analyse why the bombs planted in Surat did not explode. The bombs planted in Surat could have caused a mayhem, like in Ahmedabad, had they exploded.

"We have sent the defused bombs to DFS for detailed analysis. Once the report comes, we will be able to tell why the bombs did not explode," Surat Police Commissioner R M S Brar said.

The bombs in Surat had integrated circuits used in them, Deputy Director of Forensic Science Laboratories (FSL), Surat, S M Darji told PTI. "Detonators were attached to battery and two wires were connected to the integrated circuit (IC). This means the circuit was complete and the device was ready to explode," Darji said.

"The DFS will carry out a detailed analysis on why the bombs did not explode," Darji said. A DFS official said they are competent to detect the reason behind it.

Eighteen bombs were found in Surat yesterday while another live bomb was found today. Timer devices were used in Ahmedabad blasts where 53 people have died and more than 140 were injured.

---yahoo.in.

cant people live in harmony????

i wanna go back home safely!!
and before that.. i want to go to delhi jaipur and agra safely with my parents!
please!

ok im late for dinner.
and library of course.
yes yes i know im a nerd.
but imma cool nerd!

dont believe me?? i have PROOF.

see!

taken before the batman movie in mglore

most nerds dont go embarass themselves by taking pics with 'em plastic 6 packed figures in shopping malls. having said that, i can declare myself as cool cant i? ahahaha :P whatever hafiza!!

five down!

2008-07-22T18:44:00.010+08:00

yes yes people.. the 5th (& the MOST BORING) posting is done. yes yes no more psychiatry!! anddddddddddddddd only a posting to go and im done with the first out of 2 stages of the course. i repeat, A POSTING to go!! One MORE! 3 weeks of surgery posting, 3 days of exams and im done. sayonara india, eh i mean.. namaskara?
i cant wait to leave this place, because right this very moment, im very irritated with manipal's object of annoyance which can drive a person into insanity :

♣ the frequent blackouts
♣ the cows in the middle of the roads
♣ the never-ending car honking at every freaking junction
♣ the aromatic cow dunks
♣ the lobang2 road
♣ the phenomenal oil price(its around rm6 per liter!!!)
♣ the expensive credit (imagine this: if i topup rs150, i only get rs133, that is WITHOUT validity.if your validity expires soon, u HAVE to buy validity, which costs you more. WTF*??)

despite of all my bitching and complaining about manipal, im sure i will miss this place.. the place which turned me into a better person.

nah, here's a sneak peek of how manipal looks like:

the admin & library building.
right : lecture hall. left : the small portion of the building u can see is nehru hostel (one of the boys hostel) and the reddish-peach buildings are the expensive girl's hostels.
the foodcourt.
kmc greens & kmc stage.
Tiger Circle,trademark of manipal town.
YES.this IS the town.

one of the few funny signs in manipal

ohya.... speaking of manipal, supremo ball was held last saturday, & as u all know, i didnt make any dress for the ball, and this is what i ended up wearing to the 'red carpet' themed supremo ball 2008 :

manipal has also turned me into a camwhore and becoming poyo-er every single day!
haha!

newsflash : i just realized something: when i set foot in malaysia this end of august, i'll be HALF-A-DOCTOR by then. *gasp*

brilliance.

2008-07-19T03:07:00.006+08:00

The true sign of intelligence is not knowledge but imagination.
-Albert Einstein

superbly brilliant.
although not applicable for medical profession.

now lets take a look at this picture

now THIS is one hell of an extremely brilliant use of braincells!!!
hihi!

newsflash : supremo ball's tomorrow and i have nothing to wear. somehow my excitement towards this ball seems to be drained away by invisible LONGKANG!

16 july

2008-07-16T22:31:00.005+08:00

i just realized.. there are 2 things significant to the above date..

a) my parents' anniversary. 25 beautiful years together & counting.
& of course..how can it be a beautiful life without 4 beautiful kids? especially the 2nd child, miss hafiza. kekeke :P

can you see me behind there kacau-ing my parents dating??

my beautiful parents :D

b) exactly a month from now.. i'll be finishing my course in india. waaa so fast! and haluuuuuuu malaysia :D excited! :DDDDDD
but, leaving the country means.. i have lotsa things to be done. *sigh* such as.. putting all my stuffs into the boxes.. seal it.. send it to the cargo ppl.. close the bank account.. terminate the internet.. buy 4th 5th year books.. sell my bike.. uhuhu *sigh sigh*

picture courtesy of kai meng, classmate-cum-fellow blogger.

it's gonna be a whole new chapter soon. excited, yet intimidating somehow.

newsflash : after a day of blogging about my bike, my sooo comel nice bike terpancit the tyre n gave me so much headache. so much of a helpful bike eh?? how ironic is that? one day i was praising the bike,the next day he gave me migraine!

vroom vroom.

2008-07-10T01:12:00.009+08:00

ladies and gentlemen...
now i would like to present to you..
my beloved cute honda!!!

the anterior profile.
fiza sebok masok gmbr

the backside.
fiza, nyah kau dr sini!

the side view.
ish, minah rempit nih!

multipurpose side mirror.
waa sempat lagi!

my honda kinetic.
at last.. without the owner in the pic

picture taken at : end point
time : right after class
photographer : Miss Istiana

this is Miss Istiana in her attempt to steal the bike.
of course, to no avail.
haha.

Honda,
seasons come and go,
n b4 we know it,
you've served me for 2 years,
for a price of Rs5000(rm500),
you're worth every penny!!!!!!!!
im gonna miss you!
no doubt!

biggest mistake.

2008-07-06T18:22:00.004+08:00

i did something i shudnt have done.
its irreversible.
im so doomed.
what am i supposed to do now????????
my life ends here.
daymmmmmm.
this is what i did..
botox.
on my lips.
take a look at how my lips look now :

i overdone it! HAHA

ok ok.
was just kidding.
excuse my lameness, my life's just too boring weyh!
oh you know what botox can do to you if its in excess n gets into your circulation?
PARALYSIS.
your heart'll get paralysed.
n u'll be dead.
in a split second.
but who cares, as long as u wont get wrinkles eh??
its unbelievable how sum ppl would do such things when at the back of their mind they know the deadly consequences which can turn a person from normal healthy premorbid state into mortality, just for a sake of looking beautiful, young and irresistable.
just get a licensed n experienced doctor n u'll be fine eh?
salute them!

ohya. im done with medicine posting(this sem at least). im in the fifth(& 2nd last) posting b4 going back to malaysia.
FOR GOOD.
n i miss medicine posting already.(not that i miss the scoldings and the strict doctors and uncooperative patients) but the fact that how all the signs & symptoms put together encompasses a particular disease, its fascinating! im not in the wrong path all these while thank god :D
PSYCHIATRY posting is BORING up till now. when la im gonna meet all those patients??
THAT'll be interesting im sure. cant wait!

bang bang!

2008-06-30T20:58:00.005+08:00

one fine day,
fiza stood in front of the mirror.
as she stared at the image which stared back at her, she thought, "this girl is so freaking..boring looking." and sighed.
she looked to the left,she saw piles of dance costumes in the pink unused laundry bag.
she looked to the right,she saw her messy dusty blue study table.. n spotted a life savior, an orange kitchen scissors!!!
"i need fringe. lets get a bang, n go bang bang bang!", she thought.
n yes, she took a big pile of hair n cut it off. god must be thinking, "she's freaking mad."

this is the end result :

bangbang enuff? NOT!

i dont like it.
haha.
thank god hair grows. :)

newsflash : i have medicine end posting tomorrow n see what im doing, BLOGGING!! curse you blogger inventer!! :P

would YOU buy this book?

2008-06-28T20:42:00.004+08:00

look PROPERLY who the author is
HAHA.
i was bored laaa
*buku ini tiada kaitan dgn yg hidop maupun mati.

when nature calls.

2008-06-28T18:36:00.004+08:00

let me tell you something that i see twice or thrice in a week :
men pissing by the road side.

publicly.
seriously.
what i meant by by the road side basically mean BY THE ROAD SIDE. without feeling shy or covered by the bushes by the road side.
instead,they pee TO the bushes. haha (pity the pokok2 renek weyh.)
there's this one place beside the (only) petrol station in manipal where people pee. not only a man at a time, but sometimes 2-3 men simultaniously.
i dont see yours you dont see mine eh?as a result,this place smells of urine.
even when there's no one peeing.
it's public, it's free, now THAT's the true meaning of public toilet!!!

let nike see this pic weyh. haha

these sights are insidiously ruining my lil 'ol slow brain dont you think?
*sigh*

newsflash: i burnt my banana sandwich in the mini oven while blogging! instead of turning golden brown, it turned into pitch black in colour! im sooooo not meant to cook. HAHA.

today sucks

2008-06-24T20:29:00.002+08:00

have you ever had the feeling of waking up one day n u know its gonna be a bad day? well. i had one of those days today.

firstly, i woke up and remembered that i got into a misunderstanding with mady over this other person, B. and as the consequence, i think i lost a friendship with this B. n im sorry if i dont tell you my daily iterinaries beforehand mady. nowadays i find sms-ing no longer my cuppa tea. not only with you,but with every other person.

secondly, afternoon class finished damn late. urgh. tensi2 tensi2. have to stand longer in the wards. *sigh* im sure all of us medic students are future candidates of developing varicose veins for standing too long.

thirdly, i planned n sort of promised to go lepak at charaka with nazri & co after class, but when i reached manipal(campus) from udupi hospital, they're still in class(their class is in manipal;diff posting ma..theyre in group D whereas im in E). n so i went to ichs to wait for them... at 5 the ichs closes, i was getting annoyed of waiting for them and thought of going home instead, but the vision of me eating those cheap bread butter jam with double chai at charaka keeps playing in my mind, it was becoming just too irresistable i just have to move my big butt n wait for them at the foodcourt.
...1710...
my phone rang, at last!

nazri : kau katne?
comel : foodcourt!
nazri : buat pe?
comel : tunggu kau la!!
nazri : (broken2 voice)

-tiba2 putus line- stupid airtel!

the cheap nokia rang again.

nazri : eh jom gi minum juice ah
comel : hah juice?
nazri : ye ah. kau kat foodcourt kan? kau jalan je la k?
comel : (voice changes) AAh ye la. (while thinking.. what to eat at juice place la??)

-hang up-

there goes my bread butterjam and double chai!!! n so did my cute lil face(perasan), which all of the sudden turned into this tired annoyed full of anger face. i have to jalan summore!! aiya AIYA.

when i reached the place, i could tell nazri, anas n saleh were looking at me differently, like.. o'oo.. something's wrong with fiza look.

anas : fiza kau ok tak?
fiza : penat tunggu korg ah! dhla teringin gile bread butter jam!
anas : aku plak tringin gile egg maggi!! nape tetiba2 lepak sini?? dhla aku lapar gile nih!!
saleh : aah aku dh imagine mkn paper dosa!!
nazri : eh eh fiza bukan kau ckp lepak foodcourt la instead??
fiza : huh bila masa???????

ARGH. i was sooooooo freaking pissed. we ordered already, so we cant just leave the place can we? this's all because of the stupid airtel!

furthermore,i had all my iterinaries planned. after charaka is nandini, to buy top up, then go to the mechanic and lastly the travel agent. URGH. tomorrow then.

and then u know what happened............ nazri accidently pulled the table AND my apricot juice spilled. only mine plak tuh. my eyes were in tears already. what is God punishing me for?? aiyo. :'(

after the juice place, i went home by auto. i was like.. ahh.. thank god im going home already..(smiling) but then the autoguy didnt know where my house is!! (smile gone) AND when i said turn right, he went straight instead. RIGHT and STRAIGHT sounds wayy different weyh. takpe2, sabar itu separuh dr iman.

at last i reached home and..
fiza : (passed the rs50 note)
auto : (opened his wallet only to find he has no change) no change?
fiza : (showing her purse) no change bosssssssssssss, i only have 13rupees
auto : no no i have no change, 25 rupees.
fiza : (gave the killer look n went inside the house to look for change.)

AND I CANT FIND A FREAKING TWELTH RUPEES. WTF???
i searched the house for almost 15 mins!!!at last i just borrowed it from my below housemate (our house is sort of like a townhouse, im upstairs, the junior boys downstairs)n passed it to the auto guy. n i slammed the gate. n i was cursing all the way into the house. dont be an auto guy if you dont know the road!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

urgh.
what an upsetting day today was.
and it's not even night time.
wish me luck.

my teeth job

2008-06-21T20:15:00.009+08:00

BEFORE
that's a belt around my neck

THE PROCESS
(2 years)
that's head gear what im wearing. oh my, what an ugly sight!!

VOILA~
that's a lesion on my lips if youre wondering, ignore it.

so...
do you think it's worth the money?
the pain?
the time?
the ulcers that keeps coming back?
the embarassment when there's food particles stuck between them brackets?

whatever it is...there's no TURNING BACK!

eh. i look the same after 2 years kn? especially those cheeks! AIYA.
n eh. sapa ckp im getting thinner huh? see, i have prove!!

newsflash : mady's the newest hardcore gg fan now. HAHA!

medicotermology.

2008-06-17T23:49:00.004+08:00

Most of LayMan think all medic terminologies are all bombastic high tech nonunderstandable words. yeah i agree, some of them even i as a medic student neither understand nor heard of before..but today in class i heard a funny medic term n got me thinking.. some medic terms are so freaking hilarious!! n so..during lunch break i switch my brain on (obviously it was hibernating during class hahaha) n wrote on a piece of paper some terminologies/diseases that sounds funny that my bloody ol' slow brain could think of! here goes..

♣ saturday night palsy
♣ glue ear
♣ strawberry tongue
♣ nail clubbing
♣ minky's kinky hair
♣ Loa loa
♣ elephantiasis
♣ dracunculiasis
♣ carpal tunnel syndrome
♣ spider naevi
♣ Grave's disease
♣ rice water stool
♣ economy class syndrome
♣ claw hands
♣ Rhinovirus
♣ blue blotters
♣ pink puffers
♣ Rickettsia tsutsugamushi

okeh.. thats all i can think of right now..
funny? no?
i think it's just plain...

LAME

kan this entry?? haha as usual.

oh wells. this is medic -> interesting, yet damn hard. in all aspects.
theory.
practical.
the patients.
the skills.
the patience and emotions involved.

FUH.

pray for my success ya? *amin*

:)

_____________________________________________________________________________________

ANYWAY.

im getting bored of my blog layout.
and the glasses that change colours is geting on my nerves.

should i change the layout?

what do you think?

random stuff

2008-06-16T20:06:00.002+08:00

# i ate too much today. and it's not even dinner yet.

# mady's being a host to his ex n her hubby n son who came all the way from spore to kuching for 2 days already. n he took workleave just to entertain them. n im feeling all jealousy. im allowed to be jealous kan?? but then fiza.... she's married for gods sake!!

# i lost another set of undergarments, the 4th one! *sigh* hopefully whoever stole it wont jampi2 me la..i dont wanna be stuck here in india forever! i'll die of boredom!

# oh oh. obg karkala results are out. out of 19 ppl in my group, only 3 ppl got the highest mark, which is 42 out of 50,n im one of them!! WEE~ say la you bangga wimme!! SAY!! haha :P

# oh ya. congratulations to dina for her excellent result(dean's list!!), kak eza for popping out a healthy baby, n kak wina for being pregnant :). everybody, wish them congratz :)

# my cute bike cant start. am supposed to send it for maintenance/repair or wtv they call it. but am just too lazy to move my big fat arse, they're just too heavy.

# supremo ball's coming soon. everybody's busy doin dresses n suits.n i have nothing to wear. and just too lazy to search for ball dress(as if i can find any here in manipal). maybe i'll just wear my silky shiny high neck red blouse with small white poccadots and this ribbon thingy in front with my skinny(now loose already) black jeans? waa sounds fancy. it's not that great anyway. but who cares.

# oh no. im feeling all hungry already. alamak howwwwww

# am chatting with dina. n she's blabbing bout her new beau alan. i can sense she's all happy n cheerful with this new guy.unlike when she was with the other guy last time. am happy for you dina :D jasmin.. u bila gik?

# im missing these ppl : wahida. jasmin. dina. YON. mady. lyn. my family. kak wina. shydee intan mael n i TOGETHER. *sigh*

# i wanna go back to msia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

# oh wells. im so bored idk whattodo, i feel like blogging but dont know what to write about!! hence the crappy post. haha. ok then,i think i need food. that's why im not functioning well! bye bye!!

7679

2008-06-07T10:11:00.008+08:00

happy
birthday
mady!

he's my fav drummer, my honeystar supplier, who shops more than a girl do, watches are his fetish, the number one fan of ice lemon tea, number one hater of cincau, who has great sense of style,cuts his own hair which he wears in a funky way, loves music that i never heard of before,who smells of hugo boss,who doesnt mind being in a hurry with his sweaty axilla just to calm his princess in distress,and always telling the funniest jokes, that never fails to put on a smile on me.
:)

i ♥ you

3 down...

2008-06-03T20:07:00.004+08:00

& 3 more postings to go till..

MALAYSIA BAYBEE!! :D

oh my oh my.. i'm halfway through this sem. fuh. cant hardly wait. n oh my, eid in msia!! waaaaa~ :DDDD i know i know im being all cheerful all hyper about raya eventho its still a longggggg way to go (n blom habis ganti puasa pon kekeke) but hey, try being in my shoes n imagine this : ive spent the last 3 rayas in india without..

..my beloved family members,all waking up early in the morning getting all pretty and handsome, the guys rushing to the masjid, the ladies all kecoh in the dapor(opah the calmest of all);
..all those delicious food & those colourful raya cookies, all to be eaten while keeping up to date with the latest, hottest gossip about a distant family member;
..all those younger hyperactive annoying money seeking cousins who you would rather avoid haha :P

so.. im sure im permitted to be this hyper about raya this year kan? NGEE :D
n oh. this year we're celebrating raya in kuching!! my first raya in kuching!! WOOHOO~ im sure its gonna be superb. :D

anyway. today ive finished my obg and paed end posting exams. fuh!!
no more obg n paed this sem for me!!
no more calculating the EDD of the pregnant lady !!
no more ALL lady patients hahaha!! (gatal~)

but then..my next posting is medicine..which is the toughest of all. for me obg was already hard,n all we learned about was only in the female pelvic area~which is only a small portion of the body.
imagine being in the medicine posting.. learning bout the whole full package of the human body, bothhhh male and female. fuh. just thinking of it is intimidating. o well. welcome to the medicine world hafiza,n say bye bye to your social life. haha.
but hey, dont get me wrong, im not at all complaining, in fact im enjoying, loving every second of it. human body is a complicated, wonderful piece of machine gifted by god, which once in a while needs changing of parts in the organs; needs a layer of oil in the worn off joints; needs screw tightening in the head; needs rebooting of the mind; needs scraping of the rusty, harmful part of the body which can only be done in the hospital aka the workshop, only by the doctors, aka the mechanics, n im proud to say that in the future, i'll be one of those mechanics *amin* :D
n so, in the battlefield against all the killer diseases, i hope to be one of those soldiers armed with knowledge in the head,a stethoscope around the neck and skillful hands healing the injured and help them live a better life :D

so peeps,take good care of your health, if not please do come to my clinic n yes, im going to charge you whoever you are! this is where i dont mind burning my social life hahahaha! p/s: clinic will be open in few years time hahaha! :P
ok ok i think i better stop now b4 i crap even more. :P toddles..n night2!

the nerd,
hafiza.
xoxo!

maybe it's the time for..

2008-05-30T02:08:00.008+08:00

maybe's it's time for me to add a new entry to this super-cute-fabolous-extravagant blog..i think its been ages since i last blogged kan? n mady's been asking me is there any new entry?? yes yes syg. i tgh blog la ni. hehe

maybe it's time for me to start studying for end posting exam which is just around the corner. *sigh*

maybe it's time for me to start doing the OBG assignment..im sure the due date is before the exam date. i think la. n the exam is just this coming monday. fuh!!

maybe it's time for me to clean up the messy room. i could get an infection if i dont.

maybe it's time for me to watch a labour in the labour ward.but i havent got the chance :(

maybe it's time for me to start exercising... im getting fatter i can even feel my cheeks getting a tad bit heavier. seriously.

maybe it's time for me to learn how to cook.coz during my chatting session with pz yesterday, he was surprised to the fact that i dont know how to cook. :( how la to kawen if this persists???

maybe it's time to start topping up my hp. cant really sms ppl now! such a nightmare!

maybe it's time for me to send my honda to the mechanic because it's been giving me headaches this past few days. :(

maybe it's time for me to start eating fruits and vegetables again. im having constipation my butt hurts! n plus, for health sake.

maybe it's time for me to start reading bout politics. n understand the politic hairwire in msia. plus. im 21 already.

maybe it's time for me to recite the Quran more. need to ensure the spiritual well being.

maybe it's time for me to tell my cook to cut down on cabbages. they're goitrogenic agent i could develop goitre.

maybe it's time for me to delete the unnecessary unimportant sms-es in my inbox. i have hundreds of them n im getting annoyed. but im just too lazy.

maybe it's time for me to send mady his birthday card..but then he's turning 29 i dont think he wants a card to remind him the awful truth that he has a year to go till he's 30. the BIG 3-0!! hehehe (i still love you tho :) )

maybe maybe maybe it's time for me to go to slumber n get my beauty sleep now..have to look fresh n nice n all pretty tomorrow..because... tomorrow's the class photography session!! yeay! i just L.O.V.E taking pics. i was born to do that! hehe~ :P

nighty2 fellow homosapiens,
hafiza.
xoxo!

sophia and isabella.

2008-05-18T03:15:00.004+08:00

i got this link from dina..
n they're just too adorable i just have to show it to you ppl! ngehehehe.

oh..b4 that, pause the song in the blog k??
dont know how? just go to the bottom of this page n click on the pause button in the feast for the ears column!

arent they cute??????????

i want kids!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ngeeeeee.

oh p/s: mael n i still arent talking, we were in the same room just now, he didnt even look at me. oh wells.

MAYday mayday.

2008-05-15T02:18:00.011+08:00

ive been having lotsa down moments this month. n it's not even half month.
i feel like shouting.
i need to get this depressing sad feeling off my chest.
i need to get it out.
i need to express it.
but i cant.
the prob is.. i cant tell it to my MR-release-tension.
because he's the root of all my depressing feeling. MOst of it la.
yes,we've been having probs. BIG PROBS. dont wana talk bout it.
plus,ismail called me a bitch yesterday.
oh just so you know.according to him i membebel a lot. im just trying to help him for god's sake. especially with his spending. when i say "mael..jgn la shop byk sgt.." he'll look at me straight in the eye n say "you ni byk membebel, mcm mak tiri"
yes. ive been called as his mak tiri. just because of my expression muka yg terlebih. mcm mana la nak buat, dr azali mcm tu. i myself hate it sumtimes. i even got scolded by a patient coz of it. she tot i was immitating her. for god's sake.. why would i??
urgh talking bout that patient.. im having palpitation and hypertension all of a sudden. wanna know why?? READ on.
she couldnt understand english, let alone speak english.
guess how much i struggled to communicate with her. one kannada language book on my left hand, one notepad and a pen in my other hand.n i need to get history taking done as fast as possible, as i need to present the case in an hour's time.n when jih huei, my postingmate,who checked the case file beforehand, reminded me to ask her whether her baby cried after delivery,which in the file stated that her baby didnt(he said all this in bm la)n i was taken aback la to the fact that the baby didnt cry(fyi,ini sgt bahaya), n as i told earlier.. ekspresi muka saya ni kan mmg terlebih2, jd imejin muka saya masa tu. n that was when all of the sudden she said to me,
"why are you immitating me??"
my heart stopped beating. i was extremely shocked.
so were my postingmates who were there.
wait, wait, rewind! didnt she say she could neither understand nor talk in english?
but didnt she just spoken english? english with no grammatical error. none at all! furthermore,she used the immitating word, which is quite a bombastic word, for me at least.
n how cud she accused me of doing such a thing? n for scolding me in front of my friends, and few other patients who were watching. but i just put on a calm face n said sorry, altho i know it's not my fault as i didnt do anything, or said anything to immitate her, or to insult her. i have witnesses if you dont believe me. imagine how frustrated, geram sakit hati malu i was at that time.
argh. so malas to write more bout it. i hate this month.
SO MUCH.
i fainted during class at the paed ward once.
and i had two almost-faint events twice afterwards. :(
n oh. to make things worse, im having prob with my monthly mara cheques.
and so...
i need someone to save me.
something for me to hold on to.
someone to tell me its gonna be alright.
someone to lend me a shoulder to cry on.
someone just to be here by my side for me to let it all out.

*sigh*

ok ok. i shall not dwell on this matter any longer.
ini hanya cobaan!! yes no? YES.
ive written(typed la hehe) my feelings down, n yeay,im feeling a tad bit better now thank god. :D

p/s: and oh oh! ive just finished my 2nd posting yesterday, n today was the first day of my 3rd 3-weeks-posting which is, sadly, in karkala(this place is 45 mins college-bus ride away from our campus,n the journey's tiring!).
but watever it is,
2 postings down,only 4 more to go b4 balik msia yeay!! :)

nighty nights!

zaman muda mudi.

2008-05-03T01:23:00.005+08:00

ive got this forwarded msg from bryan.. brings back good childhood memories.. thought of sharing this with you..

budak2 yg lahir pd thn 80'an mesti ingat mase skola rendah dulu:

> > kat skola ade salesman jual buku
cerita. ari ni bg list, esok mintak
duit beli walaupun cerita buku tu dah tau.
salesman susu pon camtu gak.

> > kat library, budak2 mmg baca buku tp
just tengok gamba je. bile ade program
Nilam, sebok semua nak pinjam buku.

> > RMT kat skola mkn x best, tp yg
berduit pon join RMT, x phm....

> > pakai pensel box yg bole bukak dpn
blkg, pastu ade sharpener kat tgh2 die.

> > main lwn pemadam, syg nak guna utk
padam. padahal itu fungsi sbnr, utk
padam!

> > pakai pembaris yg bergerigi, kat dlm
ade air pastu ade bende berkilat dlm

> > cikgu pakai pembaris kuning pjg. Ade
pemegang kat tgh2 tp x penah nmpk cikgu
pgg pon kat situ.

> > bulu ayam jd ramping krn sering
dijadikan rotan.

> > time pendidikan seni, lukis sume
boleh
tp bile time kaler sume hampeh. ade gak
buat anyaman pakai kertas warna, kolaj
la, ape la...

> > main game 2D. super contra, super
mario, street fighter, sume pakai tape.

> > jam tgn Boy London jd idaman, sbb
bole
tuka2 kaler ikut suhu n cuaca.

> > takut BCG tp lepas inject poyo la
pulak...

> > balik skola beli JoJo xpon Dendang.
Tora pon best gak. Beli se mata2 nak
mainan, coklat die x mkn pon.

> > Kasut berlampu kat tapak, yg iklan
die
kat tV bole tembak alien tu...

> > Siri kartun; power rangers, ultraman,
transformers, ninja turtles,
Thundercats, maskman, Gaban dan mcm lg.

> > mainan waktu rehat : pepsicola ice cream soda..;
main getah; a'kum, kum apa? kombat, bat ape? batman..; dan mcm2 lg

> > jgn lupe sume ni sbb zaman skrg budak2
x smpt lyn bende2 ni. kite akan
sentiasa
berubah, cume asal-usul kite yg
permanent. huhu~

ahhh....i miss my school days. those hassle free days..the only problem we had to juggle was homework. *sigh*

yg benar,<-ikut karangan bm hehe
hafiza.

XOXO!

end posting no. 1

2008-04-22T15:15:00.004+08:00

i just had the community medicine end posting exam today.
it was.. not good.
i would not say it was bad.. but it aint good either.. sort of.. intermediate? haha.

the 1st Q: effect of environment on health. ok la.
2nd Q: tertiary prevention of disease. i know this!
3rd Q: the WHO day theme 2008.what was the theme again? sh*t.
4th Q: pattern of disease chan ges in India. fuh,luckily baca smlm.
5th Q: re-emergence of disease. topic ni masok exm?? darn.
6th Q: double burden in cont ext of msia. boleh tahan la.

i was disappointed with myself i went straight home n all of a sudden i had the strong urge to kemas my messy room. been posponing it for weeks. kemas kemas kemas... n now, my rooms clean yeay!!! (ada hikmah rupanya didnt do good in exam tadi hehe)

apapun....... pokoknya.... one posting down, five more to go YEAY!! pastu balik msia mkn everything ive been missing since studying here in india..jd kilang lemak la nanti nampaknya, but ish, asal perut kenyang, minda gembira, senang hati... thats all i need.n of course,surrounded by my loved ones :)

CANT WAIT weeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

xoxo, u know you love me. *wink*

harimau betina.

2008-04-20T11:38:00.000+08:00

today's a sunday.
the only day i dont have to wake up early and rush for class.
and yet, today i woke up wayyyyy earlier than the days i have class.
and so, i feel angry. not angry as such, but disappointed.

yesterday i downloaded live messenger. but to install it, i have to have IE 3.1 or later. and so,i downloaded la 3.1 IE or whatever it was. and fell asleep.
as usual.
bukak2 mata trus nampak laptop. and the IE, havent finished downloading. the lappy must've dc-ed when i was asleep.
as usual.
and so i downloaded again. and installed it when it's done.
fuh. step one is done. (it's all because i want the s'pore pics from my sister. i asked her to upload it into my facebook, tp xnak dgr. nak jugak share folders.)
fine.
and so i was happy la..just for a sec. coz when i click on to install the windows live messenger tu, now they say i need this thingy to install the WL messenger. and i dont have this thingy.
1st they ask to update the IE, now i need this thingy.
kenapa lah susah sgt nak pakai WL messenger ni?? mcm la best sgt. *sigh*
and so i d/l-ed the thingy which i forgot what it is..
step two is done. fuh.
after the thingy dh ada in my lappy, at last the WL messenger can be installed. fuh!
yada yada yada..n voila, now i have the messenger.
happy.
so i logged in. n click on the share folders. and to my suprise, this msg box came popping on the screen,
"your computer doesnt support folder sharing"
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
NOW im angry.

i emailed my dad last week for the pics as well. nope, no new mails in my inbox.
i saw my brother online yesterday. nope, he never replies.
i sms-ed my sister just now, marah her for not uploaded the pics in my facebook in the first place. and yes, she also never replies.
hmm. dont they even care bout me here in india??
i need some attention for gods sake.
i need to know they care bout me.
n im not getting any.
do they call me? NO. its me who calls them: my parents my sis my brothers.
do they sms me? RARELY.
i know i shouldnt complaint, but i cant help it.
i just feel sad.
i need to cry.
i am crying.
n now i feel like a loser, for nothing.
and now im pissed. VERY2.

you better get away from me.
coz im about to throw something. dont come near me, i might throw you across the room.
if your weight is 1kg, that is haha.

in a nutshell,i cant handle my anger.
cant handle my emotions.
coz im harimau betina.

an introduction.

2008-04-18T23:09:00.001+08:00

hello people!! (if anyone's reading that is)

hmm...ive never ever blogged in my life before, therefore please do pardon mua if reading this is just wasting your precious time. ya ya, time is gold huh?? so hmm.. i think i'll start off this blog with the events that happened today..

1)ive removed my braces!!! (altho this occurred few days back) and soooo i look less a nerd now thank god haha. ;B

2) i woke up yesterday only to realise i have this ugly,disgusting,fluid filled vesicles at the left mucocutaneous junction of my lips..and sooooo today, after it became a tad bit worse, i went to see a doctor at the Skin and STD(what im having has nothing to do with STDs ok!) department at the kasturba hospital here in manipal...andddd as ive expected, i have herpes labialis.

YUP.
herpes infection.
urghhh!!

andd to make things worse, the doctor called all the PGs of the department to look at the classical sign of herpes infection that im manifesting, and they were all like...in aweeeeeeeeee..!! as if theyve never seen this case b4! in case u dont know,80% of ppl in US have herpes infection for gods sake. but ehhem *clears throat* this is NOT genital herpes k.. i repeat, NOT a genital herpes. that's caused by HSV2. and mine? caused by HSV1 ok! see the difference?? hehehehe :P

3) im supposed to be preparing for my presentation tomorrow..but im soo fu*kg lazy. damn. is there any presciption to treat procastinations?? perhaps i should start a research on the treatment, and who knows, i might be the first malaysian ever to receive a nobel prize? maybe yes??
maybe NOT.

4) it rained today!! altho for only 10 minutes, but who cares?? after how many weeks manipal has been having too much of a sunlight, and at last rain came to save the day!! hopefully the rumput rampai will be greener tomorrow, the cows'll eat more tomorrow, get fatter, get sembelih healthily soon, and voila, here comes hafiza ordering beef sandwich at seif's palace :) <-that's the nearest place i can find beef here, im in india remember??

5) oh oh. it's wahida's bfday tomorrow andddd i forgot to buy calling card. damn it. she's turning 21 tomorrow!!! welcome to the club sayang, mwahhsss. aries chicks are cool. and fun. and funky. and funny. and gorgeous. and everything sweet. im talking bout you wahida, anddd me of course hahaha. perasan dowh!! :P ala.... skali skala perasan, apa salahnya??

6) i spilled some veg juice on my bed, n now it looks as if i pee-d in bed. ewww.

7) hmmmmm i think i better stop this now and start preparing for the presentation *sigh* thanks for reading btw! *wink wink*

toddles then..
hafiza.